I am not really into holidays, but Leap day is my favorite day! ( prob because its once every 4 years, hey! did you guys know that?) I love a holiday where its only meaning is extra time. I got so much work done today! Thank God for LD, otherwise March would have started off awful.  I spent the whole day outside! I graded papers, drank gallons of coffee, read for class, ate a sandwich, finished a project, and went to the farmers market. This is how I would like to spend everyday, outside getting shit done.

In other news, I will be 25 in 7 days, I still don't want to go to California, and Scott shaved his beard. Happy Leap Day Muchachos!

Jesus. I am soo tired. I have been working non stop in preparation for my upcoming trips to California and New Orleans. I am (i think) on top of my work, but then again who knows?!? To be honest I am not that excited YET to go home on Friday.  It will be nice to see my family, and some friends, and finish my interviews, BUT I just don't want to leave. I have this irrational fear that if I leave my wonderful life here, it will disappear. I think, in terms of myself, I am the most irrational fearful person. I can talk sense into a paper bag, but when it comes to me not being an idiot, nothing.  I wish there was some magical pill that would tell me to re-flopping-lax and enjoy my life. At this point I am doing exactly what I want to be doing. I am so afraid of losing it, that I scare myself out of enjoying it. Just like me to be a neurotic Jew, thank you Mom and Woody Allen.

I guess I will just lay on my moms couch next week, knit scarves, and grade papers. Oh and I will be 25, great.

what a dreamboat.

I tore myself away from the safe comfort of certainties through my love for truth - and truth rewarded me.- Simone de Beauvior

idol.

my love.

Tonight I got to hear Scott's new song he wrote for me. Man I love him. I mean look at him, how did I get sooo lucky.

(I found these hidden on my comp)

vent.

I have to admit that I don't really know how to deal with hurt and anger. I tend to move from rational and detached to rage and spiteful. What really sucks is when I go through these emotions within minutes of each other. Usually( when I am not being backstabbed) I am sincere, rational, tolerant, and sensitive to everyones needs. I get it. I can put myself in anyone situation and see where they are coming from. But when people are just so clueless as to the effects of their actions, they actually pull a physical response from my bones. I am at a lost, and I am disgusted. What do I do? Do I go on a fighting spree and try to let them know how much they continue to hurt me, do I continue to sit back and let my uneasy feelings constantly ebb and flow over me, or do I continue ( as have been doing) to pretend they do not exist? I really don't know. I know I am mad, and sad, and over it, and I guess thankful for my new insight as to how accurate my instincts actually are. I guess I don't really need an answer. I just needed to vent. Now everyone knows. My advice, don't hurt the ones you 'love'

Good Morning.

Everyday this is me.

There is really nothing I enjoy more than the first cup of coffee. I prefer it over pizza, fart jokes, and 'some' puppies.

Today I finally stopped being an asshole and did some work. I don't know why it takes me forever to start. When I actually do stuff I am actually happy. I feel good about myself. I am like a ray of sunshine. This morning I worked on a bomb lecture on dating. I inserted so many funny prom pics and dating videos, everybody is going to ask me to teach them everything. I love everything about sociology.

I think this picture is funny:

Because this is how I feel:

bestdayever.

Yesterday was probably one of my favorite days ever! I played at the AMFM festival to over 100 people! Everyone loved my "retro" set. (as I have been told) It was so fun to finally play music that I LIKE, and some that I wrote. I am also very proud that I was able to keep up with real musicians. Like I have been playing uke. for a while, but these guys are for real. I def. need to learn more, but I was proud that I didn't run off  in the middle of the set crying. (remind me to tell that story from my elementary school production of Peter Pan) I am excited because so many girls came up after and told me they loved me. FINALLY! That's all I ever want. I also got to watch Scotty poop play in like 3 bands which was fun and romantic. I felt like all my high school dreams came true. I couldn't believe my boyfriend was/is the hot band guy! and he likes me! wowie-wow-wow.

ALSO! The most amazing thing happened! In 2005 I went to school in NY, and I met this girl Anna. I love this girl, literally one of my favorite people on earth. In 2006 she moved out to LA for a little bit and stayed with me. After that she moved to Hawaii, and we lost touch. Last night I was standing by myself, wishing I had friends, and in walks in Anna! Apparently she just moved here! And we have mutual friends! I mean Jesus, February is my month. Now I have one of my favorite people (who I haven't seen in 6 years) living down the street from me. What a small wonderful world.

 I think I need to tell you guys, and reflect for a moment, on how lucky I am to have the friends that I have here. I mean really its crazy that I walked into such a talented nice group. Thank you universe for making Florida exactly what I dreamed it would be.

Puppies!!!

Just got home from eating one hundred pounds of shrimp with Scott and his family. The best part was getting to kiss Sophia and Jackson.

nails

I am jumping on this nail bandwagon and salivating over these:

If you cant find me, its because I am at home figuring out how to draw arrows on my thumb.

Good Morning.

I am a total believer in dream analysis (if that's what its called) to teach you lessons about your life, or guide you to your future. BUT, last night I had this dream that I was producing pop music, and I had booked three artists to collab. on a new song. Nick Canon, Rosie O' Donnell, and my mom! In the beginning of my dream, as I was putting my dream team together, I just had Rosie and my mom. I thought, how novelty and cool to have my mom perform on this soon to be classic. Then Nick Canon came on board, and Rhianna ( who was hanging out with him when he confirmed) said she would join. I went back and forth as to whether I should kick my mom out and include Rhi. Instead Nick and I concluded that Rhi. would be on the next single, and I would get Bethany from Best Coast to take my moms place. WHAT DOES THIS MEAN?!

In other news. I watched the New Girl forever last night. Is it just me or does every female on that show have bangs? I mean I get it, bangs are number 1, but really? I need more diversity when it comes to female characters.  I also feel really guilty, because my whole argument against the new girl was that they were making Jess (Z.D) to much like a child. I mean I am all for  singing and accents, but it just seems a little exaggerated. But then! they brought on Lizzy Caplan, and I am like cool a Z.D look-a-like! There will be all sorts of doppelganger jokes and switching places shenanigans, but they just villainize her! They even moved her bangs to the side. She totally called out Jess for her over exaggeration, but was made to look like the bad guy when Jess crys out " I stop for birds! I wear too many Polka dots! This is me" All of us assholes quickly felt like bigger douches because Jess called US out. We became the bitch who just didn't like cupcakes. LC is like I don't like you ZD, and ZD is like 'lets cry.' And then at the end they become friends because Z.D shows her how to crochet a baby hat. I guess I really do want to make baby hats with you ZD, I am sorry I questioned your authenticity and sincerity as a girl-woman.

Lastly, this morning I wore my new Goodwill flats to school, and as I was going to get my morning coffee I slid across the wet floor all the way to the Starbucks line. It was like I was fake surfing on someones butt, or sock sliding across wood floors. Too bad there was only one girl watching to give me the thumbs up I DESERVED.

crafts

I have  recently been obsessing over crafts.I think I am tired of using my brain so I want to use my hands.The problem is I have no artistic ability when it comes to my hands. I can't translate it. But! I am going to do it anyway. I have been talking to my new friend about knitting a scarf, soooo I should be starting that this weekend. I also have two projects I will start working on, or at least start seriously thinking about, after this weekend.
1.  whaaaats uuuup!

2.

Once I finish I will line my porch with these beauties, while wearing my heart shirt. It will be so DIY we might all start crying. I will update you on all of my crafting challenges and struggles, if anything we can go through this together.

AND... once I have my planters we will see if I can grown plant from seed! I have done it once before, but got lazy and it died before it could bloom into a young lady flower. Aren't you excited!?

Thank you Gods for Beyonce.

Happy Valentines Day

Today my department is having a bake off, so I made peanut butter and strawberry jelly cookies.:

While I was making them this morning, I realized everything I know how to cook is due to the women in my life.
1. tofu Rolls- My mom and Aunt Cindy
2. eggs- My mom and Aunt Kathy
3. Salmon- My mom
4. PB$J Cooks- My mom.
5. mac and cheese- My 5th grade self.


It is interesting the things we learn from the women in our life. We don't really realize the lessons till we are in the middle of figuring out how to make heart dents in cookies with our thumbs (as you can see that didn't work) I say happy V-day to all the ladies in my life. I love you.


On another note, I also remembered this morning how excited I would be in elementary school on Valentines day. I would wake up every morning with my box of valentines cards, and race to school to give the boys I had crushes on theirs. I would fantasize the night before their reaction to my grand gesture. They of course never reacted the way I dreamed. In fact most of the time they would tell me " Annie I don't like you, STOP" I always heard " Annie I don't know I like you yet, so keep going. I love you."  I also remember thinking that all these boys would realize their love for me once they saw me sing Dancing in the Street in the talent show, or play the Queen of hearts in the school play. Of course they DIDN'T! Losers. But now I have a boy who does love me! I didn't even have to make him a card or sing or act! Actually we made a video together. That's how you know I guess.

Happy Valentines Day <3 Annie

My love for Tyra.

soulmates.

Lesson of the Day- Stay Postive and Organized.

So lately I have been feeling really lazy and procrastination like, but luckily I had a wonderful talk with my chair. We both decided that I am obviously not lazy, and that we both need to take that word out of our vocabulary. And its true! I work all the time. LIKE ALL THE TIME. I am not lazy. I just have a different work style. I have to accept that I can't work 9-6 M-F. I work randomly through out  all the days of the week, and that works for me. So in conclusion, I am going to get off my own ass about working more. (I hope) I already feel myself throwing in the inevitable but...

However, I do need to get off my literal ass and go to my yoga class. I have tried every tactic to make myself go! I have all my yoga stuff at my desk ( which is across the street from the class) I have all the times written in my schedule (with circles and stars and arrows around it) so WHY GODS don't I just go? So my chair and I decided to keep each other accountable. Next week we are going to ask each other if we went to yoga at least once.  Maybe I can make myself go out of sheer embarrassment. I don't want to have to tell her I didn't go at least once.

Oh! She also gave me a really good tip. Instead of writing in my schedule " proposal." She suggests I be more specific. So in case you guys were wondering how to get shit done, don't just write proposal, break it down into smaller tasks per day that will add up to a finished project. This is the lesson I have bestowed upon you today. Oh! and stay positive, because you don't suck as much as you think you do.

Love, Annie

Good Morning.

Since I am trying everything in my power to put off writing my thesis proposal, I thought I would let you all (Pappas and Kerry- my devoted followers) know that today I made rolls! For my department! And everyone loved them! They lifted me in the air and chanted my name! "Annies rolls! Annies rolls!" Almost all of that is true, but they did like them. I was going to take a picture, but we ate them all.

Yesterday I spent the whole day in my bed. Scott and I painted my nails, watched the same SNL over and over, and took turns napping. He just gets me.

I also want to continue to mix media on here, so here is a pcture of what I wish my bed looked like:

I had something else I figured was blog worthy, but I cant remember. Tough.
Love Annie.

update

I was talking to Karin and decided to start using this for reals. I am sure it will benefit us all for me to write down what I do and think about. For instance, at this very moment I am laying in my bed next to scotty poop (sleeping) telling Pappas how greasy I am.  If that isn't enough to entice the both of us to continue with this blog then how about a picture.:

Look how handsome! Totally worth it.
love annie.