the angriest post of them all.

I am throwing a fit because I forgot that sometimes learning life lessons SUCKS.

First of all, last night was awesome. We played a great show. After,  I had people over at my house, and we order pizza. I am not a neat freak or anything, BUT I do follow the logic that you treat others houses how you would want someone to treat your own. This  drunk girl, that I am acquaintances with laid on my couch and dropped pizza all over, didn't tell me or clean it up, and when she left I found pizza all over my couch, and her greasy paper towel in the cushion. Ok. How old are we? I am not her mom, I am not some 18 year old idiot, I am an adult with nice things, and I get so frustrated when people are so clueless.  This other guy got ashes all over my floor, and put his shoes on my couch. WHAT WORLD IS THIS. So fucking pissed.

I think the lesson I am slowly learning, is that I am tired of being everyones mom. Of taking care of them. Of cleaning up after peoples actual and emotional messes. I just don't want to. I now know I am never letting certain people or people i don't know into my personal space. It makes me anxious and mad.

Second.  I am again learning that I can't hold anyone, not even my "closest friends" to my expectations. Why do I invest in anyone, if they will always let me down? If you suck, then I am over you.

k.