Sometimes it feels like everything is on the verge of colapsing. I sit in my bed and think, "how can I sustain it all?!" Even though I have been doing this for over a year now, I still worry as to how I can ever possibly do all this work by its deadline. But somehow it gets done, and I don't die, or get kicked out of school. Especially this semester, with way more responsibility, I constantly feel like I am about to fall off a cliff into a sea of my worst fears. Something will go wrong, out of my control, and I will be kicked out of school. This is so unbelievably irrational. I work so hard, and get shit done, but I always fear that I am one step away from dropping the ball. If I could have some wishes, one would be for all of this anxiety and fear to be gone and I would just float around like a phat no worry princess.