I just had lunch with my mentor, and I love her so much. She made me feel less crazy about feeling crazy over my thesis. I am so lucky to have someone like her to guide me through this process. We are going to start working on a publication, using my data. I am so excited to work with her on a project, it should be a great experience working and writing with someone on her level. I also talked to some people in the dept. about Girl Land, and hopefully it will be a big community of writers/researchers soon!! Things are always going well, I just wish i could see it like that more often. I get so stuck in my fear of doing something wrong, that I forget to look up and see everything I have been doing right.

I also think being alone a lot recently has made me negative and awkward. I need to focus on being positive, always, and not playing into or accepting my awkwardness. I feel like I am constantly saying the wrong thing, or being judgmental, and I really need to to let all of that go. Starting now. I also need to go to Zumba, fuck.