I was just looking through my photo booth pics on my computer, and really its super embarrassing.  I had a plan to do a whole story line or how-to with them, but I am so lazy. Here are my two favorite: poses:

1. "The seductress"

2. The "I want to make creepy love to you."

I would have paid soo much to be an extra in this movie.

home

OMG I just clean the SHIT out of my apt. I poured bleach everywhere and scrubbed. I lost 1000 pounds probs. I am reworking my work space at home. Usually it consists of me spread eagle on my couch with a box of Captain Crunch, but I feel like I might be more efficient if I sat up. I cleaned my kitchen table off, made a space on my counter for office stuff, and made a desk area at my kitchen table.  Scott and I usually eat on it once or twice a month anyway.

I also finally organzing all my clutter. I have a goal to de-clutter my house by 25% this week, and make donations to the Humane Society.

I feel like I hold myself back from growing into an adult, because I still live like a 20 year old undergrad. You know the saying " if you build it, they will come."  I think I will try that. If I build my living environment to be more workable-grownup-whatever, then maybe I will be one!

Anyway,  I am going to campus now to organize my work space there.

obsessed.

I just had lunch with my mentor, and I love her so much. She made me feel less crazy about feeling crazy over my thesis. I am so lucky to have someone like her to guide me through this process. We are going to start working on a publication, using my data. I am so excited to work with her on a project, it should be a great experience working and writing with someone on her level. I also talked to some people in the dept. about Girl Land, and hopefully it will be a big community of writers/researchers soon!! Things are always going well, I just wish i could see it like that more often. I get so stuck in my fear of doing something wrong, that I forget to look up and see everything I have been doing right.

I also think being alone a lot recently has made me negative and awkward. I need to focus on being positive, always, and not playing into or accepting my awkwardness. I feel like I am constantly saying the wrong thing, or being judgmental, and I really need to to let all of that go. Starting now. I also need to go to Zumba, fuck.

I NEED THIS.

I live a really glamorous life.

I am taking a break from transcribing, and I am feeling reconnected with my work. I should be done with my first batch of interviews in a few weeks. I think I have a publication I could make out of the first batch, and I am really excited to work on it, at least a draft of it.  I also went to my office for the first time this summer, and it made me excited...or re excited for what I am doing. Sometimes I need a reminder of how lucky I am to be in the place I am.

Also today was the luckiest thrifting day in the whole world <3

Springs

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ALSO...

OMG I AM SO SAD GIRLS IS OVER!!! WHAT IS GOING TO HAPPEN WITH ADAM!!? I LOVE HIM NOW.

So I've been kind of buggin lately, as Susan Miller mentions, my life has been focused this month on family issues, people sick, sad, and some dying, and less on my work which, as Susan Miller mentions, is usually going amazingly well. I feel sort of selfish because I am pissed about this. I am obviously saddened by my mother having surgery, and my Grandma's sister passing away, but I feel like such an asshole that my emails aren't blowing up this month, and that I am not daily feeling like I am on the verge of something career wise.

Miller again is true!  I have sort of been hibernating this month, working from home, focusing more on my family and home situation, way more than usual. I wonder if she knew I would be so burnt out on transcribing. I think going back to CA early is going to be good. Having a month as some sort of real deadline seems to be motivating me. I have 9 more "older women" interviews to transcribe before I leave, and 15 younger women to do when I get there.  I am excited to work on my moms couch, while she knits and listens to Lifetime. I am excited to work on my Dad's office floor, while he does lawyer stuff. I am excited to work on Pappas's face. I think the shift in setting will serve me greatly in my goal of finishing these transcriptions before school starts. I have also been working on my class for the fall. It's weird, I am so excited, but whenever I look at the text book I get super anxious and just want to like hold it and flip through it. I have pretty much structured the class, but daily I am freaking, should I take attendance or not, should I be easy or not, wah wah wah. I swear I could get anxious about anything!

Tomorrow I have another list, but I also think Scott and I are going swimming at the springs! I hope so. I should probably get out of my house. Word.

Don't I look like I am at some sweaty tropical place, like a character from Havana Nights? I am actually in my bed, wearing pajama's under my dress.

Also, I have been laying in my bed, watching Real Housewives of New Jersey, ALL DAAAAY. Teresa is so crazy.

Tomorrow I have to be productive. So much toooo doooo.

best post.

So I got super sick monday night, likely violently throwing up every 2 hours( thanks over the counter meds) Yesterday I felt like I had 1000 flus, so naturally I went to my doctor. Lucky me, I found out my insurance, through the school, was canceled. That $500 I payed for insurance, apparently only works when you aren't sick. So  I went home, took a bath for 10 hours and then fell asleep with some Tylenol PM. Today I feel better, but I just feel so out of it.

I also found out my mom, who was supposed to here this week, isn't coming because she has to have surgery. Apparently she has some cancer looking thing that they are taking out. In other words,  I am having the best week ever.

Scott and I are supposed to fly to L.A at the end of July, but I am going to try and fly out early. I just want sit on my mom and dad and cry like a baby.

Other than feeling home sick, sick in general, and hot as the sun, everything is going good.

Hey friends,
I started another blog,  because that is def what this world needs. It is different from this one, as I am trying to make it my dream child, a hybrid between girl memoir and academic feminism/sociology. I was thinking of cross posting, which who knows what can happen!?! but for now I am just going to link you. I am super stoked on it, soooo great. Hurray. Don't worry my loyal fans, this blog will still be poorly constructed lists of what I have been doing, and other random things I thoroughly enjoy spending my time   thinking/writing.  Like did you guys see last nights Girls!!!? OMG so crazy. Lena Dunham is a genius. I will write something on the last episode today.

http://girllandblog.wordpress.com/

It also has a twitter: Girl_landia


In other sad news, Sara and Holli left last night. I am dying inside of sadness and sudden laziness. But it's Monday, so to ward off these feelings of perpetual loserdom, I am going to be overly productive. Just right now, I am typing this and peeing at the same time!

best week.

What a fun and crazy week! I love love love them! I want to write paragraphs about what happened, but the best I can probably do is a list and photos. Thank god they came to me.

- 4 drunk dance parties
- 3 unfortunate 4lokos drank
- Interviewed one of my favorite artists
- Interviewed another badass and town friend
- Went to a animal/human psychic and avid rock hoarder. Ran around in her literal fairy garden
- 100 bug bites
- Lots of coffee
- Work/slumber parties
- 3 dinner parties
- Spring swimming!

Now we are in my bed, and I already miss them.

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my loves.

Just got back from an interview with Sara and Holli. I am having such a wonderful time with my ladies! The interview was so amazing, I never get tired of talking to new women and hearing their stories. I wish I could explain, but I could never give it justice. One day, I will be able to write the emotional experience of connecting with another woman who gets it and is doing it. I can't imagine how insane this roadtrip is for them. I have gone to one of their interviews, and feel amazed,  it must be pretty powerful to meet these women at this level daily. They have 4-5 more interviews while they are here, I am so excited to experience them.

hair.

Love this hair cut, but I'll never do it! I would def not look like that, it would be a curly afro...actually not a bad idea.

Just submitted an essay to Rookie magazine, and a pitch to Bust magazine, based on my research. Fingers crossed!!!

Yesterday was such a good day. I finished a WHOLE interview! Amazing. Wow. Holy Cows.  Then Scott and I went to Lunch/dinner.... supper?  I also bought a new bathing suit, in just a few days my beloved Holli and Sara will be here and we will swim till we are mermaids. Then Scott and I went to Collin's movie night with everybody I like, almost everybody. It was so fun. We watch Pee Wee's Big Adventure and I spent the whole movie blowing my mind b/c it was filmed in my hometown. Note: No one cares about this fact.

 Now we are all ( from last night) going to brunch soon. Its like camp except I get my own bed, and a boy can sleep in it.

ALSO! Mel Kadel,  one of my favorite artists EVER, liked two of my instagrams.  iyiy wowow<3

Wondering what Gainesville summer weekends are like? I'm drunk in my bed, singing Robyn at my itunes list.

June!

Geez! I can't believe it's June!  Thank God. May was rough, Susan Miller you were right about a lot, but May was definitely not my best month (ok it was pretty good). Today has been so productive. I paid my rent and bills, went grocery shopping AND DID NOT BUY BREAD! I cleaned my kitchen, recycled bottles, donated stuff to the thrift store, posted on Etsy, and now I am sitting in my bed procrastinating and eating yogurt.(and its only 1:30!) I WILL transcribe the rest of an interview today. Last month I just could not get into the swing of things. June, be better for all of us, thanks.

Also, another day without make up! Hurray for me and my face ( and good filters that make me look fresh)

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