I have been feeling really mixed up lately, and I have been putting a lot of unnecessary energy into people who have/are hurting me. I need to let them go. I need to let anything that points to that situation go. Part of growing up I think might be being okay with peoples shitty behavior, and not internalizing it. Neither one I am doing well, but I am trying!  

I also need to stop counting twitter as human interaction. Its not, it just makes me sad, and not work.  This morning I deleted my twitter. I am going to cut back on internet and focus more on my work, my bf, and my friends. 

I get so lost in my emotions that I forget that I am actually a flesh and blood human that people interact with. When I lose sight of who I am, the things I am doing, and where I am going, I start dwelling on the past and on others lack of empathy. Geez  I could lay in my bed for days thinking about empathy, but it would make me sink and sick. 

 I need to work on not caring about others actions and lives, and focus on my own, at least right now. I know this seems contradictory since my life motto is BE EMPATHETIC, ASSHOLE, but it's true. Maybe if I could walk around with my head up my own ass, my 'self' would be a lot more safe, and what others do wouldn't have so much barring on how my days is. I don't know, I am going to work on it, so we will see what happens.