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That seemed appropriate. It is raining in Florida! It is so pretty here when it rains, everything is super green. I like how my old windows look when the rain flops on the trees outside of them. Sooo deep. I ran so many errands today ( bough shoes.) and I am pretty solid on my proposal draft so far, so this is like the first weekend I've had where I haven't been anxiously busting my ass. Of course, not working today will probably mean I am swamped next week. Whatevs.

summer come please!

So I can drink this all day!

Blackberry Lemonade- to a small pitcher of lemonade add 1 cup of slighlty mashed blackbarries. You can smash these by hand or with a spoon, but the more you smash them the more the color will infuse in your lemonade-pretty!

also..

I CAN'T WAAAAIT.

thursdaynight

Lately I have been really into the idea of hanging out alone. Usually I am all, 'Scott blah blah me me me,' but now I like the time alone. It's like I forgot I was fun alone. I am so used to being around people, that I forget that alone I get to sit with myself and fart around. Tonight I have been hanging out with Tyra doing NOTHING in particular. It is a change from always running around and working. I think I should try to do this more often.

So for the night:

Soundtrack: Jenny Lewis- Rabbit Fur Coat
Activity: Photo booth with my cat. Cleaning out my closet( trying to make new outfits with what I have, because I am pooooor)
Mood: solid
Smell: gingerbread cookies, candle.
Goal: clean my room. Kiss Tyra a thousand. Sing along to JLEW.
Probable outcome: kissing Tyra, falling asleep.

<3

Let us all stop for a minute and look at this CUTE skirt I just bought!

iloveyouiloveu

newfav-Fab Ciraolo

 

this is how i see myself, surrounded by cake.

I am making this tomorrow or else.

1 cup (250 mL) coarsely chopped fresh basil

1 garlic clove, minced

1/4 cup (50 mL) olive oil

pinches of salt and pepper

1 thick focaccia loaf

1 1/2 cups (375 mL) grated mozzarella

6 large balls bocconcini

5 plum tomatoes

1. Preheat oven to 400F. Place basil, garlic, oil, salt and pepper in a blender. Whirl to a saucy consistency. Add more oil to make it more saucy, if needed. Cut bread in half horizontally, then cut each half into quarters. Place cut side up on a rimmed baking sheet. Spread half of basil mixture over bread, then evenly sprinkle with mozzarella. Thickly slice bocconcini and tomatoes into rounds, then arrange in overlapping slices on top of bread. Sprinkle with more salt and pepper.
2. Bake in centre of preheated oven until cheese starts to melt, 7 to 10 minutes, then turn broiler to high. Broil until cheese begins to turn golden, 5 to 10 minutes. Remove from oven and drizzle with remaining basil mixture. Cut each piece in half diagonally. Best served warm.

So now that my house is decorated exactly how I like it, I want to paint it. I want to paint most of it white again, because I am boring. I want it to be super white and bright. I want to paint a wall in my bedroom and my bathroom colors. Like vintage blueish green? Here are pictures of what I am thinking.

For my Kitchen/familyroom:

Bathroom:

Bedroom:

Cute right?!

piscesproblems

Apparently Mercury is in retrograde in pisces, and that explains why me and my pisces boyfriend are going batshit crazy. I would personally like to thank astrology for giving me the tools to look at my irrational behavior objectively. Also, shout out to astrology for validating me in my choice to hide in my bed with Tyra and play drawesome all night. I feel really bad, because people actually want me to come out, but I am just so moody that I know it will be a disaster. PLUS! They are pisces too! Can you imagine how crazy that hangout would be!  Also, because I know I can't be a complete hermit till April 4th, I signed up for two yoga classes tomorrow, plan to work ALL day on my proposal, and have plans to get drinks with my friend Chris I bail on a million times a month. See I can take control of my destiny, stars.

P.S I think choosing to stay in bed with Tyra was the right choice. She's spooning my leg. uuuughhh.

People's ability to disappoint is astounding. Everyday I find myself surprised at peoples lack of care for each other.

It is amazing how much work you can get done with Beyonce on repeat.

uuugh! I am having such a weird day. I started working, got distracted, and started eating everything. I literally cannot function when I am sweaty and hot. I turn into some big angry mad face monster. I am so hot, and so procrastinating, that I am ruining my own day. Come on Annie lock it up, get yourself together, girl!  I am also having one of those days when nothing looks right. I am trying to get ready to go to dinner with Scott's family, and I literally have nothing to wear, mostly because I am sweating through everything. Why me! Why on a weekend! Maybe I should just sleep and start the whole day over again. If I could I would totally groundhogs day this day a few times. I would eventually get it right.

I know I sound really charming and fun right now, but I do have to say even though I am tired, hot, and mad, I am still very VERY happy to be back in Gainesville. We went out thursday and friday night, and I love everyone here. They are so nice and smart. All I ever want is nice smart friends.

love annie.

While in California I have done 17 interviews in 12 days.

I have seen
1. Alec Baldwin
2. Frida Kahlo's and Francesca Woodman's work. (And many other amazing female surrealist work)
3. My best friends and family.

I have had the most interesting and fulfilling interviews, and moments of self exploration. I can't believe how unbelievably lucky I am, that I get to do this project that is so dear to me.

I am exhausted.

sooooo cute. I cant stand it.

Oy, I am so ready to go back to Florida. It's so easy to be there. I miss my bed, and Scott, and my cat. I like having my life in a 15 block radius.  I miss the routine, and just want to fall back into it. Not to say I haven't had a good time back in LA. I have loved every second of my interviews. I have reformed and formed new amazing relationships with the women. I have discovered so much about myself and the female condition. It really has been great, but I'm ready to sleep forever in Scotty poops arms, watching old movies and eating frosties. One more weeeeeek.

Also I should make the note that I am sorry for any past, present, or future grammar probs. I suck.

my love.

Happy birthday me.

birthday.

In 10 minutes I will turn 25. Oh, boy.

I have had such a good time in CA. If there is anything I have learned in my 25 years, don't expect anything from anyone. The only true person you should and can count on is yourself (and maybe your family). Once you stop holding people to your standards, they will never let you down. Once you stop trying to make people what you want them to be, they will never let you down.This sounds sad, but its not.

Here are some other things I have learned in my old age:
1. Always trust your instincts. You are never just paranoid.
2. Do what you want to do! Who cares if its hard or you're scared.
3.  Dont worry if people like you, they only like themselves. If you fit in with whatever that is, then they will make room for you.
4. Only let people in your life who are on your level. Never make excuses for people.
5. Even when you're mad, don't take it out on your friends. Just go sit in your bed and write it down. Or yell at the mirror.
6. Try to have fun! Even though you are busy, and stressed, and tired... don't forget you are a human being.
7. If you are ever faced with drama, laugh it off, and move on. Never let anyone have control over your feelings.
8. Be open to other people, they are never as shitty as you think. Unless you want them to be.
9. Work hard. Things will fall into place, and you will always feel good.
10. Don't be afraid to make huge changes. Move across the country. Start a band. Go to school. You will never regret it.

Happy birthday me.

CAAALIFORIA.

Ok, so I am finally getting excited to go back to LA this weekend. Maybe its because my workload has severely diminished this week, or maybe its because I decided to go to the flea market and eat crepes every morning, either way I promise I will not be a whiny idiot.  I am also really excited to see my family. I think they are my best friends. They all like pizza and poop jokes,  they just get me.  More than anything, I am excited to finish my interviews for my thesis. I am really excited to finally talk to 20-somethings about my theory. I have been waiting for this for 4 years. My advisor also made me feel pretty good about my work so far, so now I am not going feeling like a complete hack. I am lucky that I love Gainesville enough to not want to leave. That says a lot, because I have historically been stuck to California and my family like superglue in your hair ( this happened to me btw). I am glad I moved away from my comfort zone for something new! I feel like after Florida I could go anywhere, which I could never say before!

In other important news, I like this picture. It reminds me of my mom.

See...

and see..

I will post from California, self. I already miss my cat.