I am not really into holidays, but Leap day is my favorite day! ( prob because its once every 4 years, hey! did you guys know that?) I love a holiday where its only meaning is extra time. I got so much work done today! Thank God for LD, otherwise March would have started off awful.  I spent the whole day outside! I graded papers, drank gallons of coffee, read for class, ate a sandwich, finished a project, and went to the farmers market. This is how I would like to spend everyday, outside getting shit done.

In other news, I will be 25 in 7 days, I still don't want to go to California, and Scott shaved his beard. Happy Leap Day Muchachos!

Jesus. I am soo tired. I have been working non stop in preparation for my upcoming trips to California and New Orleans. I am (i think) on top of my work, but then again who knows?!? To be honest I am not that excited YET to go home on Friday.  It will be nice to see my family, and some friends, and finish my interviews, BUT I just don't want to leave. I have this irrational fear that if I leave my wonderful life here, it will disappear. I think, in terms of myself, I am the most irrational fearful person. I can talk sense into a paper bag, but when it comes to me not being an idiot, nothing.  I wish there was some magical pill that would tell me to re-flopping-lax and enjoy my life. At this point I am doing exactly what I want to be doing. I am so afraid of losing it, that I scare myself out of enjoying it. Just like me to be a neurotic Jew, thank you Mom and Woody Allen.

I guess I will just lay on my moms couch next week, knit scarves, and grade papers. Oh and I will be 25, great.

what a dreamboat.

I tore myself away from the safe comfort of certainties through my love for truth - and truth rewarded me.- Simone de Beauvior

idol.

my love.

Tonight I got to hear Scott's new song he wrote for me. Man I love him. I mean look at him, how did I get sooo lucky.

(I found these hidden on my comp)

vent.

I have to admit that I don't really know how to deal with hurt and anger. I tend to move from rational and detached to rage and spiteful. What really sucks is when I go through these emotions within minutes of each other. Usually( when I am not being backstabbed) I am sincere, rational, tolerant, and sensitive to everyones needs. I get it. I can put myself in anyone situation and see where they are coming from. But when people are just so clueless as to the effects of their actions, they actually pull a physical response from my bones. I am at a lost, and I am disgusted. What do I do? Do I go on a fighting spree and try to let them know how much they continue to hurt me, do I continue to sit back and let my uneasy feelings constantly ebb and flow over me, or do I continue ( as have been doing) to pretend they do not exist? I really don't know. I know I am mad, and sad, and over it, and I guess thankful for my new insight as to how accurate my instincts actually are. I guess I don't really need an answer. I just needed to vent. Now everyone knows. My advice, don't hurt the ones you 'love'

Good Morning.

Everyday this is me.

There is really nothing I enjoy more than the first cup of coffee. I prefer it over pizza, fart jokes, and 'some' puppies.

Today I finally stopped being an asshole and did some work. I don't know why it takes me forever to start. When I actually do stuff I am actually happy. I feel good about myself. I am like a ray of sunshine. This morning I worked on a bomb lecture on dating. I inserted so many funny prom pics and dating videos, everybody is going to ask me to teach them everything. I love everything about sociology.

I think this picture is funny:

Because this is how I feel: